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Monday, June 27, 2011

Weight Loss Mission: GOING! GOING! GONE!!!

Hey everyone! I <3 my scale!

This past week was a little difficult, but still good.

Tueday (6-21-11) we went to San Francisco. I had some drinks and got a little drunk for the first time in over a year and half! It was fun. But I couldnt really count my points. I DID however pick the healthiest "snacks" at the bar. I don't think I went over my points.

Friday (6-24-11) evening we went out and I had some chips and salsa. I wasn't sure how many points it was, so I just ate very minimal. I got home a searched it up, wrote it down, and I still had points left over for the day! :)

Saturday (6-25-11) I went to the San Francisco Birth and Baby Fair. We had to leave early so I just had a 6 point bowl of cereal and I didnt eat again until like, 2pm. I wanted to, its just that the fair didn't have any healthy options. Just pies and fried stuff. I was starving! So I got a turkey sandwich at Safeway.

We also went to my mother's that day and she cooked some home made chilli and garlic bread and even a chocolate cake. I knew I had A LOT of points left over, so I has a small piece of cake. Even though I didn't really know how many points I had, I still felt good about the amount of food I ate that day.

Sunday (6-26-11) We were away from home as well. We had to leave early for San Francisco and I didnt eat breakfast until about 11am. I went out with my father-in-law and had about a 12 point breakfast. Once again, I couldn't look up exactly how many points I was eating, but 12 IS a lot. Most of the time, my breakfast its like 6-9 points...WITH COFFEE. I didnt eat much during the day and it was hard for me to find healthy LOW POINT things to eat. For dinner I had a burrito with beans, rice, and steak on a whole wheat tortilla. I looked it up and it said it was about 8 points for that, but just incase, I had 16 points left over before the burrito and I just didnt eat anything after.

So I COULD have had "rollover" points, and I could have not. Im not 100% sure. It's hard eating out and counting points. When you make your own food, it's easier because you know exactly what's going in it and you can control how healthy it is. I tried to order egg whites with breakfast on Sunday, but the restaurant didnt have it, so I had to eat regular eggs which is MORE points.

But I did weigh myself this morning..... GOOD NEWS!!!

Im down 6 pounds all together!

My current weight it now 194!

I'm really proud of myself. Even though it's easy to give into temptation and to just say "screw it!", I'm not gonna do it. The feeling of seeing myself weigh less every week is a much better high than I get from eating pizza, cheesburgers, or cookies.

It's all worth it!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Weight Loss Mission: Jessy Exposed!

Hey everyone. So I guess today is the day I DID say I would tell the world what my weight number is... I'm a little nervous so be gentle. LoL.

There are 3 different responses I'm expecting...

1) You're really brave/awesome/cool to say this aloud. Not many people have the guts like you do.
2) Who cares? Why are you making such a big deal out of it?
3) Wow, how the fuck did you let yourself get like that? HAHAHAHA!

Response to #1: Thank you so much for suppoting me. You're a true friend and I really appreciate it :)
Response to #2: It's a big deal because I always told myself that I would never get to this weight. I'm slightly embarrassed about it, but at least I'm doing something about it. It CAN be a big deal in a marriage and I don't want it to be anymore.
Response to #3: FUCK YOU! You're most likely one of the people in this world who has some serious self-esteem issues that YOU need to work out. So instead of making yourself feel better by trying to make me feel like shit, Focus on YOURSELF and stop reading my updates.

So here it is... I started this journey off at...

I weighed myself yesterday (5 days after I started my weight loss) an I now am...


I feel so amazingly great, physically and mentally. I was feeling so sad for a while, but now I feel almost like a different person. My body and mind already feel better. I can't wait till I start REALLY looking better.

I'm happy to say GOODBYE to 200 and I'm on my way to saying HELLO to 130. I'm so proud of myself. I truly am. This is all for ME and nobody else. And I want it soooo bad! I cant wait till next summer. Maybe you'll see a picture of me in a bikini ;-)

Friday, June 17, 2011

Day 3 (6.16.11) of Weight Loss Mission

They say that when quiting a bad habit, the first three days are the hardest. My bad habit was over eating and I'm now eating about half as much as I was eating before. I can see how I got so big. LoL. But that's okay. I've realized that even if I dont loose a TON of weight, that I'll be happy being healthy and knowing that I'm not such a gluton! HaHa!

I've felt pretty good. I'm actually feeling phsyically and mentally better. It's weird.

This will be my last blog entry until Monday when I let thee world know my "number". I've told Brandon already. He's the only one that knows. I was SO scared to tell him. I'm not proud of myself for being this weight but I am proud of the fact that I'm owning up to it and deciding to change it. So I think it'll easier for me to admit if to the world on Monday now. I felt SO much better after I told him. It was like a HUGE chain was lifted off of me.

Yesterday food...

FOOD                                        POINTS
2 Pieces French Toast                   - 7
Syrup and blueberries                    - 1
1 cup coffee w/ milk                     - 1
1/2 cup frozen yogurt                   - 2
Small brownie                              - 3
1 cup brown rice                         - 4
brocolli                                        - 0
green beans                                 - 0
chicken                                       - 3
1/4 cup teriyaki sauce                  - 1
2 cups rice Krispy's                    - 4
1 cup (2%) milk                         - 3
1 cup frozen yogurt                    - 4
Small brownie (the other half)     - 3

Haha it was hot yesterday so I had some frozen yogurt :) And can you tell I like Rice Krispy's? HaHa! They're low calorie and low fat. YAY!


Thursday, June 16, 2011

Day 2 of Weight Loss (6.15.11)

Yesterday was a GREAT day!

I had a good breakfast.

I was out of the house for a few hours so I wasn't noticing my hunger much.

I've noticed that when I'm at home, I tend to eat more. Is it like that with everybody?

Well anyways, here's my food from yesterday :)

FOOD                                   POINTS
3 egg whites                             - 1
2 bacon                                   - 2
High Fiber toast w/ butter        - 3
1 banana                                 - 2
2 cups rice krispys                  - 4
1 cup (2%) milk                      - 3
1 1/2 cups brown rice            - 6
4+ ounces baked chicken       - 3
Mushrooms                           - 0
Green Breans                        - 0
Baby carrots                         - 0
1/4 cup Teriyaki sauce          - 1 

Holy cow! Can you belive I had 12 points left over?! After dinner we went to see Grease in an outside movie event, so I didn't get to indulge in any dessert. So maybe today I will and save the rest for the BBQ Sunday. I have a total of 14 "roll over" points. LoL. At the end of the week, they disappear though. They're only good for the current week.

I <3 veggies! Most of them have no points per serving and they're yummy and healthy for you!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Feelings About Day 1 (6.14.11) of my Weight Loss Mission

So day one was okay.

I was hungry but I wasn't starving.

It feels like I'm on a diet, but I dont feel it's impossible.

I was sad I couldn't have one of my home baked brownie.

I got pretty upset when Brandon decided to eat frozen yogurt and a brownie right in front of me. But I realized that I need to get used to it because there are going to be people around me who are eating things I can't eat right now. But he also needs to be supportive and understand how much of a chocoholic I am. And he does. But chocolate is my weakness. Im suprised (yet proud of myself) that I didn't just give in.

The Weight Watchers has given me some structure and I need that. I can't do this without a plan.

Here was my list of food and points for yesterday

Daily amount of points: 37 (I get more than normal because I'm still breastfeeding)

FOOD                                                       POINTS
2 cups oatmeal                                         - 6
1/2 apple                                                   - 1
1/4 cup dried cranberries                         - 2
1 cup coffee with milk                              - 1
1 cup Mother's Milk Tea                        - 0
Two pieces bread(high fiber)                   - 2 
3 pieces bacon                                          - 3
Lettuce                                                      - 0
Tomato                                                      - 0
2 cups rice krispy's                                   - 4
1 cup milk                                                 - 3
Homemade shrimp alfredo                       -13
                                                                 2pts. Left!
Now here's my delema. Do I eat a small desert at the end of the day to finish out my points? Or should I save them for the BBQ for Father's Day this Sunday? I'm not sure what to do... HELP ME!

Monday, June 13, 2011

My Weight Loss Mission

Hey Everyone!

So tomorrow (June 14th, 2011) I'm going to start my weight loss mission. I have my weight watchers daily points calculated and I can find a generic food points list online. I'm going to be measuring out everything I eat and writing down everything I eat. A "food journal". I'm also going to be documenting on here pictures of myself every week so show my progress. If you would like to follow me and support me, that would be great. I could use it because I'm a little nervous. There is a LOT of weight for me to loose and I really don't want to fail.

I would also like to write here everyday to say how my day was and weather or not I felt bad about what I ate...just the daily life in losing weight. I think it will help me a lot if I do. And please, your comments are welcome.

Next week on Monday, I will be letting the world know how much I weigh NOW. Once I loose a "weeks worth or weight", I will let my details be know. Nobody knows my TRUE number right now, not even my own husband. So this is seriously a BIG step for me. I'm doing it because I never want to be this big ever again in my life(unless I'm pregnant, but even then....I still don't want to be this big). I want to get down to 130 pounds.

Wish me luck! Here's a current picture of me....

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Richard Scarry's 92nd Birthday


This morning, Google switched its homepage logo over to one of a fantastical cityscape featuring mice riding motorcycles and other anthropomorphic animals peaking out from windows and managing the rescue of a second-floor cat from a burning house.

The design is meant to celebrate the 92nd birthday of famed children's book illustrator and author, Richard Scarry. Scarry passed away in Switzerland at the age of 74, but his work continues to live on in the hearts of children as their bookshelves often include at least a few volumes of the more than 300 that Scarry helped to create. As a child, I often watched The Busy World of Richard Scarry, an animated series that aired on Nickelodeon until 2000. I now have my son Brandon who is 4 1/2 and he's super into the series. He has the book "Richard Scarry's: What Do People Do All Day", "Busy World of Richard Scarry" in a DVD set with 30 full episodes, and "Richard Scarry's BUSYTOWN: Eye Found It!" Game. The game teaches kids to work together where EVERY player either wins or looses.

Scarry's first book, Two Little Miners (1949), was published in the Little Golden Books series; decades later, he would make a key move to Random House," the Washington Post notes. "His breakthrough book commercially was 1963's Best Word Book Ever, which labeled roughly 1,400 pictures." A 1989 list assembled by Publishers Weekly of the 50 bestselling hardcover books of all time included Scarry as the creator of eight, according to Brian Gillie.

Here are some links I reccommend.
"Richard Scarry's What Do People Do All Day" Book

"The Busy World of Richard Scarry: Everyday There's Something New" DVD

"Richard Scarry's BUSYTOWN: Eye Found It!" Game

Wednesday, June 1, 2011


Being a mother and wife has really tought me how to live my life to the fullest. Before I met Brandon, or had kids, I wasn't very happy with my life. Sure I was young, but I know I was only enough to know what was good and bad. Right a wrong. And what made me happy or sad.

I met my husband Brandon and he tought me how to love myself. It was really hard for me to do, and I always felt like I was fighting myself to do it, but i did. And I love myself more that I could have ever imagined growing up. I was never told I was beautiful by a guy that didnt "want something" else. I never felt respected by ANY man I had in my life. I never really had a positive role model to look up talk to about sex, boys, love, puberty... nothing. I basically had to figure it out all on my own. And that didn't really lead to very many good decisions. And I never really felt apart of my family. At times I still don't, but hey, thats what being the "half-sister" gets you right? I was always the different one. I never felt like I fit in anywhere.

Then after Brandon came into my life, I was always learning about myself and our relationship, and what it meant to be TRULY loved. He tought me that it didnt matter what other people thought of me, or weather or not THEY loved me, but what really matter was what I thought of myself, and what I believed in.

After having my son in 2006, i grew so much as a person. Not only because I was forced to, but because I was a completely different person than I used to be a year before. I learned how to be positive and look at life as a whole big expierence. I took the good and bad with open arms because it's the bad expierences you learn from and are the most benificial. The good ones you just have to make sure you cherish for a life time, and you learn to appreciate the good things that come your way. It was hard to begin raising a child at 18, but I think I did better than most women my age. The cards of fate were dealt and I had to learn to play with them.

During the planning of our August 2009 wedding, we hit a speed bump in our relationship...We had almost broken up. Stress was mounting and I had no idea what to do. We weren't happy with ourselves and what we wanted for eachother and we had to figure it out. We realized that we needed to focus on ourselves (me on myself, and Brandon on himself) to be able to make eachother happy. You can't love someone else until you learn to love yourself. This was a HUGE learning expierence for me because I thought that I knew all there was to know about being in a relationship and being a mother.... I was wrong. I very quickly noticed that I wasn't taking care of myself as well as I should have and that I needed to make a change in order for my relationship with my husband AND son to be healthy as well. I also didnt know that when I truly believe in something (our love), that I will fight for it till the death. I never knew that I had that kind of power in me...In the end, it made our relationship stronger.

Being a GOOD wife is truly a hard job. It's not easy supporting your husband sometimes... I love my husband very much, but there are times where I just dont understand his decisions and I still have to support him because I love and trust him. I would never lie to him, and I think I've learned to do that without hurting his feelings. It's hard putting a smile on your face when you've had a rough day at your own part-time job AND at home with your kid. I didn't know so much pressure was put on wives being absoloutely PERFECT in everyones eyes...especially to the people who DON'T know what going on 100%. Like finances, or arguments, or just no sex for that week. A lot of my friends weren't/aren't married or have kids so it was hard for me to let out how I felt about things. In a way, its a blessing because I get to talk to my husband more about what's bothering me and how it can be fixed. It doesn't always work out the way I planned, but hey, thats the learned expierence. I'm STILL learning how to talk to my husband so he won't get mad when I tell him that he's not cuddling me enough, or that he hasn't helped out with the kids that day. And he's still learning how to respond to accusations I make about him. Marriage is WORK! No doubt about it. And I don't think it's something I'll ever figure out 100%, but I look forward to the challanges and experiences it will bring me.

I hope I will always be learning about myself, my husband, and my kids for the rest of my life. Sadly, I will never know everything.